The Most Perfect Guy

When I first met you I knew it was true,
I was in love and there was nothing I could do.

From the minute I get up 'til the time I go to bed,
Visions of you roll crazily through my head.

You're perfect in every way that you could be,
I just wish you felt the same about me.

You're a gift from the gracious lord above,
I'd give anything for just one second of your love.

I love you so much, I honestly do,
There's no other guy as PERFECT as you!!!

Touched the soul of thee

I’ve held you in my arms before –
So close were you to me,
Then kissed the lips I longed for,
And touched the soul of thee,
At night I’ve loved you often,
When our passions overcame,
The souls who longed to hurt us,
Those who wouldn’t play the game,
But in us we felt the longing,
The one whose love was true,
Who wanted to feel the joys in life,
Like the joys I found in you,
I’ll tremble when I touch you,
Cry when our souls unite,
Then soar among the angels,
When I feel your soul's delight,
And when that day arrives,
When as one we’ll surely be,
I will have known no greater joy,
For I touched the soul of thee.

LETTING YOU GO

I THOUGHT THE LOVE YOU FELT FOR ME
WOULD ALWAYS BE FOREVER.
I BELIEVED YOU WHEN YOU SAID TO ME
THAT YOU WOULD HURT ME NEVER.
YOU LOOKED INTO MY EYES,
AND YOU SWORE I WAS THE ONE.
YOU TOLD ME THAT THE CHEATING STOPPED;
AND THAT YOU HAD BEEN DONE.
IF YOU EVEN CARED A LITTLE,
YOU WOULD NOT HAVE DONE ALL THAT,
BUT NOW IT'S TOO LATE FOR US,
AND YOU CAN'T TAKE IT BACK.
I KNOW THERE ARE MANY SECRETS
THAT YOU STILL HOLD DEEP INSIDE.
I WISH YOU COULD HAVE TOLD THE TRUTH
INSTEAD OF ALL THE LIES.
YOU KNOW THAT YOU WERE LOVED,
BUT SO MUCH YOU'LL NEVER KNOW;
AND IT HURTS ME TO DO THIS,
BUT I HAVE TO LET YOU GO.

HOW WILL I KNOW

HOW CAN I TELL IF YOUR LOVE IS FOR REAL
GET INTO YOUR HEART TO SEE HOW YOU TRULY FEEL
HOW WILL I KNOW IF YOUR INTENTIONS ARE SINCERE
OR IF YOU'RE SIMPLY SAYING WHAT YOU THINK I WANT TO HEAR
HOW DO I TRUST THAT YOU ONLY WANT ME
WHEN I KNOW ABOUT THE PLAYER YOU USED TO BE
WHAT CLUES DO I LOOK FOR WHEN SEARCHING FOR TRUTH
HIDDEN IN WHAT YOU SAY OR WHAT YOU DO
I WISH I COULD KNOW AND KNOW FOR SURE
THAT YOUR LOVE IS STRONG, LOYAL AND PURE
NO CONFUSION WITH INFATUATION OR LUST
I REALIZE THAT TRUE LOVE IS BASED ON TRUST
BUT I'VE BEEN HURT AND I'M SCARED TO TRY
THE LOWER YOU GO, THE HARDER IT IS TO CLIMB
OUT OF A HOLE OF LOVE'S DESPAIR
IT'S DARK AND LONELY AND NO ONE ELSE IS THERE
HOW DO I KNOW WHEN TO LET THE WALLS TUMBLE
HOW CAN I BE SURE MY WORLD WILL NOT CRUMBLE
IT'S A HUGE GAMBLE OF UNCERTAIN CHANCES
EVER LASTING LOVE OR A LIFETIME OF SADNESS

My Promise to You

In the morning when the cool chills the air
My promise to you is that I'll be there
To keep you warm, to make you smile
And to let you know I will always care

If you wake up sick or just a little blue
My promise to you is that I'll take care of you
'Til I see that smile, 'til you're up and well
And 'til you know that my love is true

If things don't go right and the rain won't end
My promise to you is that I'll be your friend
To brighten up your day, to keep you safe
And to show you my love won't break or even bend

In the evening when the sun sets and stars rise
My promise to you is that when you close your eyes
You won't have to worry 'cause I'll be there
In the morning to love you as we greet the sunrise

Without You

Waking up each morning,
now a different way,
a piece of me is missing
now that you've walked away.

Confusion in your life-
now I understand,
wishing you would have talked to me
while being able to hold my hand.

Making it sound so easy
but I know you still care,
I miss you more
knowing you're no longer there.

Your tears and hugs
confuse me even more,
wanting to hear your voice
more now than ever before.

Waiting and waiting
feeling more empty as each day goes by,
nothing seems more important
than having you back in my life.

Nothing I wouldn't do
to have us back together,
but now I hear how you're doing
and understand, without me, you're much better.

yesterday went to my 2nd granduncle's house.. having a birthday party mahz..every year also got de.. anyway, i got there around 5.30pm..and talked with adeline they all..waiting for mommy and sam..den mother came..sam not here.. why?? tired.. -.-"" pang seh me sia..KaOz~ he promised me yesterday de..sigh.. also said that scarli if i not there den he will be bored lahz..WhAt ThE~ for your info, i'll always be there every yr de..SiGh~ SaD~ was waiting for him to play daidee with me de..but nvm lo.. next time ba~

anyway, it's kinda fun..LoL~ the cake's nice..MmM~ =P and the food's nice too.. YuMMy~ kekeke~ den it's like the whole house ish really packed with people sia..my 4th granduncle-in-law not there..coz he not feeling wellz..heard frm they all..sigh..muz pray pray hard.. den got one uncle also not there..same same..sigh..also muz pray hard.. SiGh~~ pray for health!!

HaPPy NeW YeAr~!!

HaPPy NeW YeAr~!! sorry for da late one..cuz yesterday was kinda..lazy to update..hehe..was playing gunbound..plus i have a poem to share!! =P

juz got home frm a movie..The Last Samurai..WoHoo~!! i watched with yiling.. nice show~~ muz watch muz watch!!! die also have to watch~~ kekeke.. ths next show i wanna watch ish Silver Hawk..seems to me not bad lehz..see when i free go watch again..LoL~

wellz..that's all ba..don't ask me abt the show worx..if not spoil the whole thing liao..kekeke~~ gotta go now..buaiz~!!

One Day

I wish that I could have you,
But your just out of my reach.
Our friendship means something special
but a relationship would be sweet

I don't know how to tell
But I talk to you all the time
Sometimes I just want to hold you
Oh, I wish you could be mine

One day I will get my chance
Just wait and you will see
My life would be a perfect dance
If our hearts waltzed in harmony.

Cupid?

I wonder... does cupid ever fall in love?
Even his fate is controlled by the above
Does his heart ever ache or skip a beat?
Has cupid ever been swept off his feet?

Does his stomach ever fill with butterflies?
I wonder if Cupid has ever been shy, or ever cried
Or if on his very first kiss did he, too, close his eyes?
Can he strike his own heart when his golden arrow flies?

Is Cupid, the great giver of love, himself alone,
Without a soft voice to whisper in his ear
Or a gentle ear to listen to his every woe?
Who is there to hold him as his eyes slowly close?

How I feel for you

You are light when I am in darkness
You are my voice when I cannot speak
You are my eyes when I cannot see....

You hold me up to breathe
When I need help and cannot stand on my two feet
You are my angel who came to save me
But now that you are away I miss you so...word cannot say....

I feel lost without you by my side
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
Just see your face one more time
I wish I could see your eyes looking at me when I am shy....

I miss your smile and laugh
I miss your arms to hold me close
So close we can feel each other's hearts beat....

I miss the way you held my hand
Oh, how I wish I could turn back the hands of time
I know I cannot stand alone, for I need you by my side
I need your hand in my hand as we walk....

I shine when I am with you
How great you are; how I wish I could see you one more time
My love for you grows thicker every day, and you know it
Most think we are just young lovers, what do we know....

But they can't see how much I am in love with you
They see me try to put it into words, but I cannot speak
So I write it; I still cannot put it into words....

One thing I can do- is follow my heart
My heart is always my truest guide
My heart tells me "I love you so deeply that no words can compare...."

I know you are far away from me, but I love you
And, in my eyes, you are close to me
I don't look at it as you being a long way from me
I see you every day 'cause I carry you in my frame, in my heart....

I think of you and I can do anything I feel
I feel like I can be free and not worry if we'll be together in time
When we are, you can hold me up again
like you did when I needed strength....

You are my angel who came to save me
That's how I feel about you
Always and forever....

Questions

As the world revolves
And the skies turn blue
I will always ask
Why I had to love you

As I look at our pictures
And think of your smile
I'll wonder why
I thought you worthwhile

When I cry on my pillow
And sob to the sky
I'll continue to ask the question-
Why?

Why did you change?
Where did it go wrong?
Why didn't you try to
Make it last long?

Why was it hard?
What did I ever lack?
The hardest question now is...
Why can't you love me back?

I Love You But How Do I?

My love, there are no words
that can explain how much I love you,
but it seems as if I have a hard time believing
if what you say is true....

I never knew a love like this before,
but the thought of not having you makes me want you more.
Trust is a big key in our love,
for you are the only one I'm ever thinking of....

I think about you before I lay my head down to rest,
wondering if I'm the one who is the best....
I think about all the unforgetable memories of good and bad.
Sometimes you don't even know when I'm sad....

I wish I could heal this trust I don't have
for you in my heart,
but the only thing I can wish for
is that we will never part....

So, my love, from me to you:
Give me patience, for it is a virtue....

I Love You....

Someday

Someday he'll come up to me,
Look into my eyes,
Whisper softly in my ear,
"I want to be with you, until the day I die."

Then I will lay my head down,
And begin to cry,
Whisper back, "I want to be with you, too,"
And he'll wipe the tears from my eyes.

He'll hold me as nighttime falls,
And until the morning breaks,
Then I will know that my heart,
Will no longer have to ache.

For the one I have loved all these years,
Now loves me, too,
And I won't have to worry,
He will see me through,

Any and all bad times,
That should lie ahead,
Because we will be there for each other,
Forever and until the end.

donno what to type for today..i'm crying as i type..but who will know this anyway..even if they read this..no one will bother, right?? of coz..becos i'm juz a nobody in their hearts, isn't it.. hahaz..how naive i am..how naive..but who can i blame?? who can i go to when i'm unhappy?? nobody..truly..why?? i've always hiding my true self..even my dad and my relatives..they think they really know me..but they don't..what they really know is only the mask.. the mask that i'm always wearing 24-7.. same to my frens..always think that i'm so happy..no worries huh?? well..who can i blame?? only myself, isn't it?? because this is who i chose to be..i wish to let others know the real me..i don ask much..juz a little bit of understanding frm the ppl around me. well, maybe they've tried..but kinda in vain?? guess so..why muz people always take me for granted?? i want to let everything out..everything.. let the world know the real me.. i really hate sec sch life..how i wish i could turn back the time and stay there forever..or maybe the time when i was born will never come..

i wan to show the true me..but how?? i donno..sigh..suan le ba..this day will never come..

btw, HaPPy BiRtHdAy, AmeLiE~

Angel

His lips, so soft
and voice, so sweet,
Wanting so badly
to hear those 3 words from him repeat.

I melt like ice
when I catch his tender gaze,
Running through my thoughts
like searching for the ending of a maze.

What I would give
for his hands to touch mine,
For us to go to a restaurant
or his house to dine.

His angelic smile
tears me up inside,
Knowing he doesn't know
wishing I hadn't lied.

Just because he's good
at hiding away his wings,
and because you wouldn't know he was an angel
by the way he sings.

Doesn't mean he's not worth silver
or diamonds or gold,
Because, though his looks may die
his soul will never grow old.

And though his laugh might get rough
his sense of humor will always stay,
He means everything to me,
he forms my night and day.

So, I pray to God
as I fall to one knee:
Dear Angel, I love you,
why can't you love me?

maybe

maybe it's a cause without a meaning
maybe there's no real reason for leaving
if you were made not to care
you wouldn't still be standing there

waiting for me to reach for your hand
saying i'll do everything i can
you'd already have left and said good-bye
slammed the door without a tear in your eye

if you really didn't want to stay
you wouldn't have listened to what i had to say
maybe you now know
there's no reason to go

this is where you should be
if you left, you'd really miss me
maybe true love is forgiveness
maybe that's what this is

and we can justify what we do
by simply saying, "i love you"
and maybe that's what everyone dreams of
to be in true love

maybe there isn't any reason for you to leave
this is right where you should be
maybe we shouldn't question true love
just take it as a blessing from the man above

Confused and Frustrated with you!

What am I doing, where am I gonna be?
I have no clue as to where my life is heading...
I have no eyes to see!

You say you hate me, you say you love me
You say you want to be friends.
You say we should start over....
Then you tell me this is the end?

You hold my heart in your hands
You hold it with reckless care
You toss it around, you drop it on the ground
You're blind to see the pain I bear

I want you back
I want to forget you, I want to hold you tight
I want to dream of other things
But I dream of you at night

Why do I love you?
Why do I try?
Why do I care when you only make me cry?

I must be a fool
I must be unaware
I must not realize you will never care

Either you love me
Or you hate me, or we are just friends?
But don't say you love me, don't say you like me!
Then tell me this is the end!

I wish I could let you go
I wish I could leave the past behind
But somehow you have hooked
This fragile heart of mine

I will love you till the day I die
I mourn this loss till my tears run dry
I will hold your memory deep in my heart
I will always regret us drifting apart

As much as I love you, as much I as care
I can't go on like this
Is it a hand shake, is it a hug
Or is it a passionate kiss?

I have to know are we friends, or are we more?
Are we ever going to be a couple again
Or are we no more?

I don't know what you feel inside
I don't know if you cry at night
I don't know if you want me back
Or if you want to forget the past

We had something so special
And those times I don't regret
But tell me, should I love you?
Or should I just forget?

All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted was someone to hold me near;
Kiss my lips, hold my hand and whisper in my ear,
"I love You," just the way you do.

It makes me want to cry,
But all the trust I've lost from you
makes me wanna die.

This poem is not much,
but all I want is to hear you say,
"I love you, Hun, and always will,
each and every day."

Please kiss my lips, and hold my hand,
and whisper in my ear.
'Cause all I ever wanted
was someone to hold me near...

sigh..today definitely wasn't a very gd day for me..2 tests..math and chi..difficult than we thought..but whateva..i've done my best anyway..but the gd thing ish, we got to go home earlier den usual..after chi test..yoshx~!! =P

another bad thing..SARS!! *not again~!!* well..my sch's starting the temp. programme again..sianzation..troublesome..waste time only..time ish precious for sec. 4 students hor..temp temp..

one other bad thing.. animals..to all people who are reading my blog for today, plz treasure all your pets and animals..they have feelings, ok.. once u wanna buy them, pls don't discard them..it's sho sad to see them roaming on the streets or in SPCA (The Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals). if u buy a puppy and discard him later, what's the point of buying one at first den?? sigh~ poor animals.. and also pls stop taking all delicacies like shark's fin and stuff, they're gonna be extinct soon!! i agree i really love animals and mother nature..but once they're extinct, den we can't see them anymore..isn't it sad..

actually i still got alot to say, but maybe next time ba..wellz, at least got one gd thing. read beckham's blog juz now. seems like he has changed his target to his council president and managed to earn her trust. ConGrAtS~!! LoLx~ feel happy that u've found the one that u're really looking for better treat her nicely worx, ok?? if not u won't live to see the day of tmr..LoL~ kiddin'

that's all for today..ja ne~!!

From the first time I met you

From the first time I met you,
I knew my dreams would come true
if it was just me and you.

When the first time we kissed I knew it was you
because I never felt this feeling inside
until I met you.

People said we wouldn't make it,
then the next thing I knew
you told me you love me so.

You come into my dreams at night
and I can't get you out of my mind.
I think about you all of the time.

Right now I am just realizing
how much I love you
and want to be with you.

Months have gone by
and we are still going strong
and I feel that you are the one.

You are the most perfect person
I have ever known and I hope you know
I will always love you so.

You inspire me and help my hopes and dreams come true.
You always know what to say or do
when I am feeling blue.

We have a lot of obstacles to overcome together,
in the future. When it is all over and done,
I hope you'll say I am the one.

People have tried to interfere with what we have.
But when it was all over and done I thought to myself...
"If we made it though this
then I know you are the one."

You are so understanding and independent, you do your own thing.
You don't care what other people say or think.
You set goals, aim high and you always know the right thing to do.
I am so proud of you.

Now you're off to college
I trust you not to leave me behind
in the search for your future
that you will soon find.

wah liew~ darn it lahz..this few days sho damn unlucky..juz hit the corner of my table accidentally..basket..now there's a bruise on my foot..st00pid sia...my arm also got bruise..wah liew~~ sho damn unlucky these few days sia..on tuesday, when in the mrt train, the train stopped suddenly..den guess waht happen?? my arm was hit on the hand-pole..darn..cuz i was holding my bag and it's so damn heavy..with the gi and books and stuff inside..and juz *bish* on the metal pole..st00pid day..kaoz~~

den now red cross..every sat..wed..fri..got training for district FD comp..sia la..think we what..mutants ar..don need to study for test de mehz..somemore cannot get out frm it..DARN!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHZ~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why?

As I'm here in my room,
All I can do is think about you.
Remembering the moments
we've shared,
the first time I met you,
the smile that let me know
you deeply cared.

But all I can do is cry,
wondering why I even try.
If you didn't want to be with me,
why did you bring me
into this world of fantasies?

A world where I had opened
my heart without a doubt
knowing it would be filled
with joy and happiness.
Now, all you're doing is leaving me
in pain and mysery.

You don't want to be
with me anymore,
Why won't you be straight out?
You knew the problems we've had,
we could have worked them out
but you never really let me try.

I really wanted this
to work out,
make it last
but it seemed,
you didn't even try.

Each day I'm here without you
all that comes to mind
is, "Why, why,
What was it I needed
to do to please you?"
What ever it was
heaven knows I tried.

Each tear I shed is
for everytime
you become more precious than before;
for how much you really mean to me.
Every tear is
for the pain
that burns in my heart
letting it know that,
day by day I'm losing you,
I'm losing you fast
with only one word in mind...
"Why?"

Always Love You

I lie awake at night
All I think about- is you
Why can't you just see the light?
Do you even have a clue?

Me and you were oh so right
And i thought we both knew
I guess I thought wrong
but, babe, I still Love you

Sure we used to fight
not everything has to go right

Now the days go by so slow
And i sit here so lonely and cold
Without you i cannot live
It's just too bad you can't say the same

I hear that you like somebody 'new'
and that breaks my heart in two
I see you are happy with her
as you once were with me
and i can't help but wonder
do you love her as much
as you said you loved me?

I hope you realize what you mean to me
and someday you'll feel the same
and come back to me.

Thinking Of You

I think about you all the time,
and wonder, exactly, what is on your mind.
Could it be 'me' you're thinking of?
If you have feelings, are they feelings of love?

You're on my mind every minute it seems,
when I am sleeping, you're there in my dreams.
Don't worry about me while we are apart,
I'm keeping you safe, here with me, in my heart.

The feeling I get, it can't be defined,
when I look in your eyes, and you look into mine.
The touch of your hand, the warmth of your kiss,
are things I find I can't resist.

The sound of your voice is like music to me,
your thoughts into words are like sweet poetry.
More beautiful than the most beautiful star,
I find myself wanting to be where you are.

Together forever and never apart,
body and soul and heart to heart.
All I can offer and all I can give,
are yours if you want it... as long as I live.

Understanding How I Feel

When you find someone you love
It's so hard to tell them how you feel
But even harder to explain it's real
It hurts so much to hear that person say,
"You're wrong to feel this way."

What can I do, what can I say
To make you understand
How I feel about you each and every day
Is it that my heart skips a beat
Every time you pass

Or how the walls around my heart
Came down with just a glance
I toss and turn all night in bed
Thoughts of you running through my head

I don't know what to say to prove it's real
Words can't express the love I feel
Just hold my hand and look into my eyes

If you see tears falling to the floor
Then you will know it's true
I do in fact, love you

The boy I try to love

I try to give everything you want, everything you dream
I just wish I wasn't a part of your scheme.
I try so hard to impress you every way I can
but then I think you're just being a man.

All you want is to mess around
You stomp my feelings into the ground.
I can't tell you how much I cry,
Sometimes I just want to die.

All my friends say you're an ass,
But maybe I just dream in the past.
I remember how you used to treat me,
With a whole bunch of love, you made me happy.

God, I can't take this anymore,
You make me feel like such a dumb bore.
I'm in pain, I'm hurt, inside I cry
I wish you would give me a try,

I am confused, I hate the way you sometimes treat me

I would be happy to share my feelings with the world
But I keep them inside and make myself hurl.
Everyone says how dumb I am for believing in you,
Nobody understands how you change so quickly, like you do.

When I see you I don't know why I like you,
But there's something you do that keeps me with you.
Now people say it's brain wash, you're a compulsive liar,
But it's all so different when you're with me you make me feel higher.

Is it really true?
Is that the only reason you do...
Are you playing me for a fool?
How can you be so cruel.

What will I ever do with you?
'Cuz I don't think I can get over you
I need help because I can't do this for the rest of my life,
It would never work to be your wife.

You treat me like crap and make me feel bad
And also make me feel sooo sad.
Well, one of these days when the next boy comes along.
I will get over you and be singing a happier song

So, for now this is all I can say
Good-bye and have a nice day
Next time we get together
I hope you understand this won't be forever.

Another Tear

we were once best friends
My love so true so dear;
but then it came to an end
and then there were only tears.

My love for you only grew stronger
but yours never came.
Our love should have lasted longer.
Why did you have to act so lame?

I cared about you deeply
and I cried so much.
Now I talk to you meekly.
I miss your soul and touch.

Now I am just lost,
playing things by ear.
Now I know what love can cost...
Is that another tear?

Astonishing Beauty

Beauty such as hers is extremely rare,
the likes of which others cannot compare.
With a beautiful face and gorgeous eyes
looks like hers trancend from the skies.

With beauty such as hers a Model she could be,
she has that sort of beauty it hurts your eyes to see.
Not meeting this Angel would have been a tragedy,
the way she caries herself you might be tempted to call her "your
majesty".

The overall point is that she posesess the beauty of a Godess,
and her denial of this fact would surpass being modest.
While other girls may referred to as a 'cutie'
she's the only one possesing Astonishing Beauty

MY HEART

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES YOU'RE ALL I SEE
YOU'RE ALL I DREAM OF AND ALL I HOPE TO BE
I NEED YOU IN EVERY WAY
I WANT YOU WITH ME EVERY DAY.

I TALK ABOUT YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS
I FEEL THE NEED TO CLUE THEM IN
I'M SO GLAD I HAVE YOU TO BACK ME UP
AND SEE ME THROUGH WHEN TIMES ARE ROUGH.

I KNOW YOU'LL BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU MOST
YOU ALWAYS SEEM TO CARE
I KNOW WE'LL LAST FOREVER, AND WE'LL NEVER PART
WE'LL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER, BECAUSE YOU ARE MY HEART.

HaPPy NeW YeAr 2004~!!!

HaPPy NeW YeAR~~!! LoLx~ all of us passed our grading for ju-jitsu on tuesday. congrats, guyz~!! othet than that..alot of unhappy things lahz..but..wellz..don wan to mention lo..also too long liaoz..if u wan to know den call me. i'll tell u what happen..hahaz..but muz see if it's right time right mood or not lahz.. kekeke..

wellz..went out yesterday for countdown..went to fort canning park..met up with my pri sch frens lo..fun lahz..also got fireworks..too bad lahz..that stupid building and tree..blocking our view..we were like..i'm gonna tear that bulding and tree down sia..LoL~~ but who cares~hahahaz...have fun can liaoz..after that, joshua and i took the last train back lo..hehe..we were kinda abit lost lahz..but still managed to find out way back to mrt station..hehe..den he alighted at toa payoh, and yew tee for me. joshua ar..if u've seen my ndp's entries, u'll know who is he..my pri sch fren lo..saw him again during NDP this yr..hahahaz..had a great time with all the frens over there..

den got home le..bathed den came online lo..saw keng yau kor kor online..my biao ge lahz..we talked abt lotsa stuff..den later on the phone..after that, an fen jie called me and also talked lo..ahahaz..den later we continued online. until donno what time den she say she cannot tahan anymore..LoL..cuz she also went for countdown at orchard mahz..hahhaz...after she went off, i played GB with wei tao..and some others lo..hahaz..bored mah..that's all lo..hehe..buaiz~!!