Whatever you want it to be... it all depends on you

Humans live with numerous faces in their whole lives, by going under the knife, or within them.

It's alright if someone went under the knife several times as whatever within them still remains. For those who live with different faces as a non-physical aspect, the bearer will have to keep up with it. It's tiring, but they chose the path. Nobody asked them to. And no, they can never stop. Once you started, you can't stop. It's not addiction, but if you do stop, all that were said and done will be burnt to ash. You might as well pray that you'll be burnt to ash as well.

But, it's a process how one will look at it with temptation. Yes, nobody will know the actual face of yours, the REAL YOU. All that were shown are merely facades, which can be fabricated as many as you want. You can own different types of lives you want.

For some, somehow, they are in desperate need for it. Like oxygen to life, blood to vampires and demons. It leads unwanted attention away from your real life, life that nobody will have to know about.

To study humans, you can never trust them.

KL KL KL!!!

I"m @ KL!! it's been donkey years since my last visit.. =P Just had our dinner @ e hotel's restaurant since they're having a seafood buffet. ^^ David's sleeping now.. he's been awake since yesterday 9+pm just to drove me home after class... Met with his friend (forgot his name... AGAIN.. =.=!!) @ 1+am to start our journey to KL. He's having an engine transplant from 1E to 3E. Unlike changing to 4E, the difference with 3E is pretty minimal, time taken will be shorter compared to 4E.

Drove to Danny's WS 1st thing we got to KL to park our friend's car, sent him to Pasa Rayat since he gotta rush back to SG for a wushu performance. Went to meet Ivan for our car's cruise control. And since Msia doesn't have Honda Civic 1.8 for Manual (they only have auto here), we couldn't get our cruise control done today after being there from 0930hrs to 15++hrs. But no fret since we're only lacking of a relay, we'll have to get back tomorrow to his place to get it done.

Btw, I've got a new laptop Asus U33Jc. Wanted to get U43Jc at first, but it's heavier so i changed my decision instead. ^^ And it's a 8-cell batt life, can keep it running @ top performance for 5 hours non-stop. Unless it's @ power-saving mode, it's a totally different story. ^^

Work & sch life's good and getting better every single second. The best thing of my job? I don't have Monday blues anymore, and everyday is a happy day of working life!! wahahhaha~~

Just got back from today's class... It was a busy but fruitful week, i even spent the whole week @ PB (except for tue), can you imagine?? hahahss...
Mon: Meeting w FOSTA
Tue: C5&6 Progress Meeting w PUB
Wed: Meeting w TCs
Thu: Supposedly to meet w SCDF, but cancelled
Fri (today): meeting w LTA

Though the meeting was supposed to be @ 0900hrs on Monday, FOSTA forgotten about it, so was only able to start @ 1100 hrs. I just went to class directly from PB.

Tue's meeting's @ PUB ofc, as usual, till 4 plus.. talked to IE's PMs on some issues, left out my DPM & RE...they rejected my invitation when were asked to join us.. =P

Wed's meeting w TCs @ 1030 & 1400... somehow or rather, 1030's ended faster than expected, ended up walking to taka from ENV, lunch, walked around kino, and back to ENV for 1400 meeting.. =.= i'm pretty ps about the scheduled meeting time arranged by yours truly... =P

Thurs is a huge mistake... we didn't even need to meet w SCDF, but somehow or rather it was arranged. gotta cancelled w e mgmt in e end. though i did some work @ PB, i'd still prefer my own ofc.. ^^ but it's still a blessing in disguise.. david drove me home!!! WahahHHAHAHHAhaha~~!!!

Met w LTA officers in e late pm, dinner @ Bugis, & to class. Apparently, someone was "harping" about me being late for class during dinner. =.= i even got the time to wait for my sch's free shuttle service, ogayz? hahahss!! Had porridge for dinner, and e portion is freakin' huge!! i was kinda speechless when i saw it, but glad that i had someone to share it with ^^. It's good, by the way... satisfaction. ^^

here it is, my working days of this week... and next week's packed as well, though it's only 2 days till date...

and we have yet to get our results for last papers.. damn u, MDIS, why are u being such a snail...??!!!

Thoughts..

Am posting this entry while lying in my bed.... can't sleep though.... things happened to my darling in school, but at least it was solved. Babe, miss u lots, dearie!!!

Just thinking if I'm too independent...seems to me that I no longer know how to rely on others... I was being asked today to share some of my workload. Though I really wanted to, I just don't know how to rely on people anymore. No doubt my work is stressful to a certain extent (which job isn't), but I'm enjoying the stress.... workaholic?? I don't know.... but I do know that it keeps things off my mind when I need e least of 'em.

Xmas is reaching pretty fast, not sure if it'll be e same as previous years, going to Granduncle's for Xmas celebration...

Hope all is well for everyone!!

It's been freaking long since my last flu attack.. and i'm having it now... and it sucks uberly BIG time!!! i thought it's just another attack of my norm rhinitis, but it's not... proven which my nose has been an opening tap since lunch time, after getting caught in the rain... =.=

went to zgg's house yesterday pm... ROFL~ we always go each other's house last min..hahahz.. kel & tun gg were already there like 1 plus, so i told zgg that i'll only be there after she woke up...
was supposed to be there around 2-3pm, but the lil' one was sleeping till 2 plus, so by the time i got there it's almost 4pm.. :P and i got a ride from David.. heehee~~ didn't stay for long though, after feeding the cheeky one, we went for dinner @ god-knows-where zichar diam... ROFL... only think i know it's opp. MINDEF. pretty cheap $46 for 4 pax, inclusive of 10 bucks for satay.

We went BPP after that.. zgg bought westlife CD from Popular, though i couldn't find my Byakuya's sticker!! sigh~~i've got rukia's on my ezlink already, byakuya's supposed to be on the other side... they look good together, ya know? *screaming of all byaruki fans...SSCCCRREAAAMMMM!!!* =X

went PB for meeting with one of contractors this morning... i'll make up your lunch another day k, Linh? :PP

and no, i'm not doing this in class.. i ain't attending class this evening.. much THANKS to my freakin' nose which doesn't know when to stop when it should.. =.=!! currently, i'm nicely wrapped in this oh-so-wonderful shawl, courtesy of COC. Cambodia...though i hadn't seen him face to face before, but he gave me this thoughtful gift... just perfect when my exam room = human-size freezer...*bbrrrrr*

Irene, i've got flu as well!!! *Lame...zzz*

New term has started...

Start of a new term, 2 modules... Principles of Biz Mgmt II & Principles of Mrkting & Production Mgmt. For the latter, it's supposed to be one of our former lecturer, Mr Siew, but it got changed somehow.. clash of classes, maybe? Anyway, our new lecturer for that module is so strict.. sign once before going to break, and another one after break... means we can't zao after break!!! shit head... new assignments again~

I went for appt with one of the owners this morning, called kathy jie after that if she's free for coffee... then when i arrived @ TP and waited for like god knows how long, she msged saying no mj kaki is free, asked if tues is free for coffee instead... LoL~ anyway, i didn't leave with no reports from TP.. ^^

was doing some research on my own on humans.. that's abt it, basically. Till now, nth much.. it's about the same as what you'll be able to get from books, authors like Allan & Babara Pease, etc...

I'm getting one of their books, though it's a huge possibility that only Kino has it, as usual...sigh~ Will get it if i'm around Orchard... i've given up hopes on Popular for all the books i wanna get... damn you Popular, you shouldn't even exist in SG if the type of books you're selling is so FREAKIN' LIMITED!!!

P.S.: I'm so sorry that i couldn't join y'll for dinner on Fri, though i uberly wanted to... =( i've got class which i've promised my babes to attend & i really have to go (1st lesson) even though i dont really feel like going... will join y'll next time if there is no fri lessons, yea? hugz~

Longest entry since... god knows when... :P

Done with my exam for this year... i'm so prepared to re-take my financing & accounts, seriously...

Went out with the girls on Wed straight after our exam, too bad Yada couldn't join us. We had dinner at Khansama Tandoori Restaurant, Upper Serangoon Road (You can find the link under my good food recommendation). It's located along the shophouses, 2nd-storey is air-conditioned whereas the ground floor isn't.
We were at the 2nd-floor, and the atmosphere was relly great with the interior designs and all. We gotta wait a while for the food (it really wasn't that long, but we were all so famished till 1 scond felt like an hour.. :P) and it was so OISHHHHIIIII~~!! We ordered chicken fried rice, 1 garlic & plain naan, tandoori chicken, kebaabs, etc. $51.90 for total amount spent. Fabulously bloated ^^

Met mommy for lunch @ 11am on Thurs, PS.... were deciding between Crystal Jade & Swensen's... went to Swensn's in the end since they were still having their 1-for-1 lunch promo between 11am to 2pm. We both has Wagyu beef, mom's medium-done, mine's medium-rare (as usual :P). Just walked around after lunch, mom bought a top from coldwear for me.. thanks, mom!! Went to HDB hub for meeting after that... ^^ btw, wagyu beef is still e best!!! i love u, wagyu beef!!!

Since my exam's over for this term, celebrated zgg's bday on Fri... treated him to congqing steamboat as a treat for his bday. Was thinking to get him soemthing at first, but back to my own character, food is still the best... Whhahahahha~~ anyway, he picked the place, so i'm fine with it if he's happy cause it's for his bday ^^... Total amt spent for 2pax was about $92... good food. ^^ went to tun gg's house and ton till 8am next day, took cab home.

Looking forward to 11 Dec 2010!!

Another round of exam is here soon... after Deepavali... Seriously, i really dont think i'll have the chance of passing my accounting & finance.. good gracious...

bbzgg's bday is here soon... fortunately, it's after our exam.. wahahahaha~ he's having his exam now, so didn't talk to him much about his bday celebration. not sure if e rest of our zz familie are going as well... but anyway, i've checked a couple of great places for dinner, but still unsure of plans after that..hmmm...

and yes, i'm supposed to be studying now... bye!! :P

I pass my exam for my 1st term!!! yEA~!!! and i seriously thought that i'd fail and would have to retake 2nd paper, fail & re-module... =P

Many things happened over last week... till i'm so, so, very tired... at least, i've completed 1 assignment, 1 more to go.. chiong ar~!!!!!

I guess that's how my life is going to be for now... work, reports, class, assignments, presentation, exam, the lil' devil... ^^

Paulaner Brauhaus

Went Paulaner with zlg yesterday evening.. it was so crowded even @ 6 plus due to their 11th anniversary. We managed to get a seat inside somehow, thanks to someone who went to e bar counter after their meal... :D:D Kel joined us after his movie as well. Tried Bailey's (seems like they've only got mint chocolate, but it's nice), and and Magerita mango. Maybe shall try Magerita lime next time.. hmmm... and they dont have anything with cherrynade (cherry martini, vodka cherrynade) since it's so rare nowadays. Oh, and kel said vodka raspberry taste like medicine which i'm glad i didn't order... LOLs i'm still trying different alcohol and cocktails.. hahas~

It's really nice to be there once in a while, of course, the company must be good as well.. hahas~ my class's starting next Mon, and no news for the classroom location!!my goodness... maybe i should just call them in Mon...

I'm working today, even though i went drinking yesterday... Lols~

I've only slept for freaking 2 hours yesterday!!! Was on the bed @ 12mn, toss n turn till don't know what time it was... and the damn headache gotta pound @ my brain... Ero-sennin came back, got him to get me a couple of paracetamol for the pounding. And i still couldn't sleep!!!

Not until it was actually 3+, 4am then i managed to say hello to my lala land... BUT, i got to wake up at 6am!! Bloody heck~ Fortunately, James fetched me to his office from my blk... if not, I'd be running late for sure!!

I wanted to sleep during the journey, but in the end, we chatted along the way till we reached his office. Then, waited for the PROs, Engrs, TO, RTOs to arrive... proceeded to Tuas for meeting, and went back to office again. Checked emails, scheduled appts while waiting for the group to wrap up their tech meeting. Supposedly to join PB for lunch, but went JP with PROs instead since there's limited space in the vehicle.. LOL~ went home straight after that...Met Lucas for a while to deal with policy stuff...

Why can't the time fly instead of crawling.. i seriously can't wait for next week to go Paulaner's...

I'm seriously thinking that this post doesn't really make much sense, since i'm typing it with only 2 hrs of slp...ah, never mind... can't be bothered anyway...meeting mom for lunch tmrw... i'm seriously deprived from slp...

终于完了

七月了，又要开始忙了。。。希望今年都能顺利，最好不要有血光之灾就好了。。。

昨晚，终于能好好的睡。。考完试了。。。现在就在等下一个学期，八月二十三日。我也跟zlg约好了，一起去 Paulaner's 放松心情。。。 不过，还是得等到下个星期五。反正，下个星期五是 Paulaner's 的十一周年，所以晚餐和酒都是$11 nett. 真的好期待哦！！ 希望当天也是能和zlg轻松自在。。哈哈。。
时间好像过得很慢似的。。。为什么不能转眼就是星期五了呢。。。

Paulaner's 是一个我超喜欢的地方。不过最重要的还是陪伴的人。地方好，歌好，服务好。可是如果相伴的人不好，就干脆自己去较好些。。。

eXaMz...

yes, EXAMS~!!! schedule's next week.. time rockets!!!

i missed last year's, so i'm definitely going to cemetery to get myself recharged for 1 yr. fortunately, 7th month is starting next week... phew~!! even though it's supposedly to be starting next week,the actual has started already.. it's kinda getting too crowded outside my windows, and it's DAMN irritating... i guess i'll have to do with makeup like today when i'm going out since i'm not able to get a good rest at night... bloody heck.

Supposedly to go Paulaner's tmrw after work... but it's still not confirmed....

Happy Brithday!!!

It's my dad's bday today, called him to wish him a happy birthday while on my way to meeting. anyway, told him that i'll be delaying his bday present till Aug which is after my exam... hohoho~ might as well celebrate together with daddy & mommy since both of theirs are in Aug as well... :D

just view my phone bill for the latest month.. it's been so long i've last seen it with 3 digits... LOL!!! Well, i've just installed a residential phone in my room with a different line, i supposed my phone bill for the upcoming month will be back to 2 digits, hopefully within the plan... heh

anyway, dont really want to talk about yesterday's test. it's either i pass, or i fail. LOL~ what a nice way to say it... i think someone will most probably faint by reading this...hahaha!!

my brain is cracking from thinking what we are supposed to do during our celebration of 10 years... no no to bbq, absolutely no time for preparation. might just stick to ktv & food, but seems like there's not much difference.. JX is against Paulaner's.... and i'm out of ideas totally.... =.=

Shopping...

Back from shopping 3 hours ago...went G2000 @ Anchorpoint with hubby. Ahchorpoint is full of factory outlets; G2000, Charles & Keith, Fox outlet & Giordano outlet are some of them. Anyway, i bought 2 shirts& 2 pants from G2000. Total price is... *Drumroll* SGD 174.60 incl. GST charges whereas it's supposed to be SGD236 if bought from normal boutiques @ AMK Hub or Junction 8, etc.

Got to know new friends in my class. Dina is one of them (sorry ladies, my brain is still lacking the cells to remember your names.. :P) Most of us are taking biz mgmt, whereas a couple will be with mass com...

Just some thoughts....

A change of job might be a bad thing, might be good as well. It all depends if the new job has more advancements, more opportunities, a place where you can gain more experience through the stages given to you.

I read from somewhere that it's not a pretty clever thing to post about your work, just in case you future employer might run a check on you online... Well, you'll never know, i guess. I think i'll heed the advice on this, it doesn't hurt anyway. haha~

It's just that i'm back with EPR again after 2 years.. working timings are more flexible, and higher income. The reasons are that simple. Even though it's about the same project, but it's a whole new team. Saw the old team last Wed and they couldn't really recognize me. Said i was slimmer ( i truly hope it's true :X) haha~ Anyway, we're arranging for lunch one of e Wed when i need to go PB for meeting, which is on every Wed.

Time really flies, tests in Jul, exams in Aug... Bless me...

Burnt ...

Oh well, My Saturdays are burnt again... mom in law havin' dinners for all sat evening... there goes my zhu zhu familie gathering till mid jul!!!!

I'm not complaining, i'm just rantin'... :P It's rightfully hers to go out, and i can't complain since she looks after our Little Miss Mischievous in e daytime. But i do feel kinda bad that we got to postpone our outing till Jul as we've decided to go out end of Jun actually, but thanks to me (AGAIN), it got postponed AGAIN. BUT!! my zhu zhu familie are understanding, so i suppose they won't blame me that MUCH... heh... :X

Little Miss Mischievous is still drinking 90-120ml of milk every 3 hours, porridge @ noon & for dinner. She'll push away the milk when she's done, though the bottle might not be empty... i guess we have a lil' picky one here... sigh~
Why is the milk given every 3 hours? Cause she doesn't take any amount more than that, so she gets hungry every 3 hours... =.=

Fri classes are getting worse.. most of e students left the room after signing on e attendance list... i belongs to e minority who stayed behind. yea, though he's not as interesting as our mrkting lecturer, but i'd rather stay since listening to the explanation helps me to understand better than just reading from the book. (though i truly understand why the rest of the class left...)

have been using Eumora bar for 1 month, i think... removed the blackheads on my nose, and most importantly, it also removed the most stubborn whiteheads under my chin!!! Though the whiteheads are not completely gone, but most of them are!!!

Goodbye to toner (since blackheads are gone, the pores seems to be much smaller apparently. And according to research, toner is not & never a MUST. It does not makes your pores smaller as the size cannot be changed.)

Goodbye to moisturiser (my skin doesn't feel dry any more!!)

Goodbye to blackhead/whitehead remover (which doesn't seem to work at all...)

Goodbye to monthly facials!!! (no longer need it every 2 months though i'm still on a package.. hope i'm able to change to ear wax candling)

Considering i'm not using makeup so often, my healing crisis are very minimal.. but if you're using makeup everyday, the healing crisis period might be longer.

Overall, i guess i'll be sticking to it. *thumbs UP*

Time really flies... MMR vac for Sapphira is next week, as well as my last day of work with FLA... i'm joining back with EPR till i graduate from MDIS. Jen just starting postings for recruitment last week even though i've submitted 3 weeks ago.. =.= I guess there'll be a crowd in for interview on Mon since there were so many phone calls last Fri regarding the job opening. There's 1 who is currently working with another agency firm in ML as well, but it's on e 5th floor. I think she'll be coming for interview with higher chance since she's already in e co, just different branches...

I'm still fine with e class schedule. As of now, my classes are on Mon & Fri till end of exam in Aug. After that, i supposed it'll be a superbly tedious schedule.. Most of the term will be 4 time a week, and i've got totally no idea how to get the topic to my mom in law... bless me..

Studiessss

It's been 1 mth since my last entry... anyway, my class has started this week on Mon.. it's twice a week, Mon n Fri. I suppose i don't really have much time to post since i'm working n studying now, but i'll TRY to post at least once a mth.. hahaha...

At least my lecturers try to end e classes b4 10pm... :)

i so wished i had my licence earlier... then i'm able to drive to campus and back home... will try to get it done by this year i hope, though i've been saying that for 4 years already...=X

And my girl drools when she sleeps... =.=

你会想我像我那样的想你吗？

Busy busy...

Finally i've got e time to write some serious stuff..been busy during the whole CNY hols.. haha but didn't manage to visit my relatives in KL.

Sapphira's been busy too, playing with her uncle yangyang on 2nd day when we were @ my house... she was in her walker chasing him to & fro between my living room and my dining room.. hahah~ She really behaved herself though tire out totally during the hols. At least she's fine with noisy places and relatives carrying her.

She's getting more talkative & cheeky as time passes, though she's still asking to be tucked in bed @ 8.30pm. Her mealtimes are quite fixed as well... i suppose all is well as of now, hopefully as time goes by too...

Just a video for e Haiti...

新年快乐

This is the guy who turn the poem into a song..



媽媽，別哭，我去了天堂，
隨著地動山搖的一聲巨響，我看見你跌坐在嘈雜的操場，
撕心裂肺的呼喊還在我的耳旁。

媽媽，別哭，我去了天堂，
漫天的星星可都是你的淚光，黑暗之中我不是孤獨的流浪，
同學們手牽手嘶啞地歌唱。

媽媽，別哭，我去了天堂，
老師說那邊再沒有鳥語花香，所以我戀戀不捨回頭張望，
綠水青山卻是一片蒼涼。

媽媽，別哭，我去了天堂，
老是我捨不下曾經的夢想，幫我把漂亮的書包好好收藏，
留戀著黑板、書本和課堂。。。。

媽媽，別哭，我去了天堂，
只是我等不及看到綠色的軍裝，我镇开眼要看你活得堅強，
你把愛把我的支柱照亮，
沒有我的日子，
你把愛給活的孩子吧。。。。

龙舟悲剧，钟灵人永远的痛 - 最后的话