i'm sick..again~!!!! *cough cough* cough for weeks liao but still not okay yet..... went to see family doctor but still like that...then yesterday went to visit other clinic lo...... alot of people thought i 'heaty' but actually is not lo.... actually is cold cough... *dotx* no wonder so long still haven't recover....my that family doctor also never say what cannot drink of eat....then i tought is heaty..then i took strepsils and liang teh...kns...... now then i know actually all these cannot take.... siGh~ can only drink plain warm water.... then got alot of things cannot consume....
yeeling ar...i'm out of singlehood le...*hee hee* i know many will say that i just broke up with lyon then so fast find a new one like very what lo..... but this kind of thing is really hard to say..... no feeling is no feeling liao lo......
i know da da for less than one month only.....kinda afraid that it's only a short-term liking.... but i feel like we've been together for a long time le.... also donno what i like him abt....but i guess that's why ba....i'm really happy when i'm with him lo...hee~ so paiseh... :P
da da, don't be so stress up ok?? mUaCkZ~

P.S.: does anyone know where can i find this background music?? i wanna buy the cd~!!!!!!

seems like i haven't blog for a while already...well, alot of things happened, actually...both good and bad.... the good thing is, i've know alot of new friends..they're nice, really....the bad thing is, i back to yaya singlehood (taken from yaya sisterhood) again. there are really too much problems...furthermore, dad and mom don't like him, and i don't think his mom likes me anyway even though she doesn't know about us.
please don't ask me what really happen...i just won't say..i'll tell one day if i want to, otherwise, i guess i'm bringing it with me till my very last breath. for those who were with me yesterday, thank you, guys...i'll be fine, really...don't have to worry for me, okie??

I HATE MY NOSE!!!!!!!!! ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOOOPID RHINITIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you said it hurts to know that i can't turn up for an appointment that is arranged before time. i do admit it's my fault for not turning up for the concert, but i'm sick. i sms-ed u abt it..but the reply i got back was actually about the ticket. u said it's kinda waste. you ain't happy with wasting a ticket, fine. i'll pay u back 12 bucks. is that what u want?
whenever u're sick, i'm worried sick...afraid that you'll be admitted to hospital again. but when i'm sick, are u even there to give your concern? all you care abt is only if i can meet up with you or not, nothing else...you don't give a damn abt my health condition. i know you always expect me to return your sms right away. i ain't as free as u but i'll always try to reply as soon as i could. i've got alot of things to do, not like u. study n tkd is all you have to do and maybe worried about. you always complained abt u're tired abt your life. but no matter what happens, u still have your parents and brother to help u through although u keep complaining to me abt how ridiculous they are. i'm different. i'm got to study n do household chores, as well as jujitsu, and also have to keep thinking of my dad's safety during his work. i'm also sick and tired of all these things that i've gone through. i can jolly well juz go n die and leave everything back. but unlike you, i've only got my dad. what will happen to him if i gone? i will always place my dad and sam's family before u cuz u will never know how dear they meant to me. i'll always try to spend more time with them whenever i can. you can't expect me to go out with you whenever it's holiday. you're busy, so am i. now who's more tired? you or i?
you said it hurts to know that i seldom or never tell you all of my problems and you hate to find it out yourself. firstly, waht problems do you want me to tell u abt? secondly, so what if i told u abt them? you can't do anything abt it. i can't expect you to be right in front of me right away whenever i encountered problems. i ain't that crazy. b4 we started our relationship, it's not as if i didn't tell you that i tend to keep things to myself. i've also told you b4 that it's hard for me to open up, cuz i've been like this longer than i remember. you said you'd give me time, no matter how long. i've already told u that it's nearly impossible. and now, u expect me to tell you everything? i apologise for that can't be done in a minute.
i can't always be there for u and i don't expect u to be there for me always. i know u really want to spend more time with me. it's not as if i don't wan to spend time with u. pls spare a thought for me.
I won't be the one and only in your heart.
I will be replaced.
if you ain't happy abt our current relationship, i'll be willing to let u go. yes, i'll be sad, i'll cry, but i'll also be glad to set u free.

juz came home my grandaunt's house....although it's like 17 minutes over..but still HappY BIRtHdAy, SinGaPoRe~ n also HaPPy 4th AnnIvErSaRy to SPI!!! WOHoHoHO!!!!!!
today went out with my fren...went to coffee bean..juz laze around and discuss some stuff...then later went to grandaunt's house for dinner.....saw the parade...nice...very nice...oh my oh my...i miss the parade last yr....hee~ it was so much fun...and that indian guy in the parade juz now...it looks like the 'outstanding' sir frm last yr....hmmmz..i wonder if it's really him.....
anyway, today went to relative's house..makan...nice leh... the soup..so long never drink le....grandmother passed away then maid cook de is ok ok de lo...now nobody cook...so sad... *sOb SoB* but at least still got to drink sometime...lotus soup, i wonderif that's how you said in english?? lian ou tang....YuMMy~!!!!!
i'm still bloated now...will not really la, but...whatever......scarli tmr also cannot eat breakfast...lOl~ that'll be crazy...but it does happen sometimes.....
i guess that's all for today?? ciAoz~!!

Gloomy to some,
peaceful to me,
The rain soothes all of my agony.
The hurts from those who seemed to care
Are passed into the chilled fresh air.

The hardships and hurt are tossed around
Like a windstorm, but without a sound.
The stormy nights caress my heart,
Thunder breaks my fears apart.

Autumn days surround my world,
They comfort and pacify this little girl.
Forever changing I will be.
Autumn days, please rescue me.

went to Police Heritage Centre today with da SPI members....it's fun~ yeap, and cool.. hEe~ met them 9+am at novena mrt stn, then we walked all the way to that place..then waited for wei yi. after that, we exchanged our ic for the visitor pass then went into tower 2...had that security check n stuff like that, then was brouhg to see a videoclip, the police force frm the past to the present..then was brought around by mr. phua, a retired police officer. i always like uniforms and weapons...esp. no.1 uniform..G.O.H..nice..super nice...the navy's no.1 uniform is da best...all white..super cool, man~ hEe~
we went to makan at novena food court after that, then beckham, wania, wei yi n me went to tampines mall...walk walk, then sat down at coffeebean chat lo...beckham n that wei yi super jokers sia..lOl~ then later sunkist joined us then we went off...beckham n i went to cck's library..for his research on ghost. then later we went to cck park go invetstigate..also donno what he want to investigate la...but in da end, we played the sand around the stations..LOL~ lame lo..HahA~ play until tired then go home which is around 11pm liao...
so shagged sia..lOl~ gotta go watch tv..hEe~ buh buaiz~

today's rehearsal b4 the actual parade was totally atrocious..really don't know what the hell are they thinking abt..ke-kanan can execute ke-kiri, ke-kiri can give me ke-kanan...see already will vomit blood...siGh...tak boleh tahan sia....i guess they're too anxious..afterall to most of them, it's their first parade...but on the actual parade, they really did a good job. well done, guyz!!!
i heard that the sec ones quite enthu for footdrill...not bad lo...but still have to brush up la...somemore discipline not there.... mrs. siva asked if the seniors batch can go back to help out sometime.....i'll surely go down...cuz i can't stand the attitude of the sec 1s lo.....it's really unbearable....siGh~ they don't treat the sec 3s with respect...how can how can how can...somemore someone told me that there's a cadet scolded the senior cuz she too fierce. please la....footdrill ain't playing time. it ain't rck lesson, etc...i guess the sec 3s also never state properly training is training, play is play....ugs need to have discipline..esp. during footdrill. what will others think of u when you're not serious during footdrill training?? juz becuz fd is all abt discipline, discipline, discipline..if now they're only not happy with how fierce we are, then next yr how?? next yr RC is parade commander, i heard....i'm afraid that none of them can do it....juz have to train them more on fd and the giving of commands lo...
i guess i still miss red cross afterall...........................

wanna talk abt yesterday's ndp...i guess i've got alot to say..
i'm happy that my juniors have improved on their footdrill, but there's still room for improvement. nevertheless, they did a great job yesterday during rehearsal. [3 cheers for red cross!!!] i'm only unhappy abt their attitude. it's total shit, and i really mean SHIT...my fren frm npcc complained to me after the rehearsal that one of my cadets scolded kao pei when he walked passed the squad. i was shocked and disappointed. Never in my life till now have i ever heard my school's red cross cadets scolding other uniform groups in vulgarities. plus, juniors have to be more respectful for the seniors, and seniors have to be stricter with them. i guess they're too lenient or the juniors just can't be bothered. i don't know...just hope that they can really improve on their attitude, footdrill... it'll be difficult, i know, but i believe that they can do it. i suppose now the juniors can't really take any hardships... it's kinda sad when nobody is participating for the Singapore's NDP this yr...but when i saw the parade during the Ne show and yesterday, i had the urge of joining them..the feeling is unspeakable...it's just too great...
jia you worx, juniors~!!!! :D

today never go sch...gastric prob...sigh~ yesterday went to see doc then he gave me mc..gave me that oral suspension again..but it doesn't taste that bad..so don't mind drinking it..but have to finish..ARGH~ he also gave me some cough mixture [YUCK!!!] and lozenges[another yucky stuff cuz no flavor...] for my throat...but lozenges like no use like that lo...heck care la....
read caro's blog and the notes left juz now.. i left a whole pile of notes to wee liang...wasn't angry but was quite pissed?? donno la....and uh..sorry worx, caro, abt the super wrong date..hee~ typo error, i guess...
phlogger is down...donno la....budden yesterday post should be up by now...huo mao san zhang.. means fire has gone up by 3 levels....if by end of this wk still not there i don wan to use liao...use more brain cells die more...den blood cells more less...den oxygen more less...then everything also less until i die faster...
i still don't like my math teacher, that moron.....if next lesson he still gimme that kind of shit i don care liao....will and definitely will talk back..shout back....scold back......he not happy is his own problem...he only know how to talk crap in math lesson.....blah blah...moe employ u is to teach students, not to talk crap to us....talk crap also donno how to talk crap...super rubbish and bloody bullshit...
aiya..nth to say more...later talk more, gastric pain more...will die faster....i then don wan.....i haven kill people yet..MUAHAHAHHAHAH!!
sorry ar..i crazy liao.....byebye...

You come to me
With your problems
I like helping you

When I'm sad
And depressed
I bottle it inside
And hope for the best

I know that you
Would help me too
If I could just tell you
How I really feel

But I can't tell you
What's on my mind
It's not that easy for me

You have your problems
And I have mine
I solve yours
But what solves mine?

I know that you're my friend
But I feel so alone
My problems are all inside
Swimming all around

No matter how much time passes
I'll always feel alone
and always be alone