" so what you're his girlfriend, you dont have the right to interfere. you are just another CHEAP WOMAN in his life. GOOD LUCK TO YOU."
i really regret not replyin her this since he dont want me to reply, "at least i'm a woma,. way-off better than some people that is so cheap to go steady with a guy who is 6 years younger, and got dumped few days later but still not letting it go. A woman is someone who is able to let go of her past relationships, so can i say that u aren't even a real woman? YES, I CAN."
She asked him not to bring me along, but too bad, i've to go home and get my books before meeting her.
Another regret of mine, not going up to the life lobby and wait for her, i told him i wanted to see how she looks like, and he asked me to stay in the car.
i'm an extreme person. I can be very nice and sweet to you, but i can also turn ugly towards you. I'm regretting that i can't fulfil the 2 things above. I really regret. but what caused it? SOMEONE. why on earth must i have to listen to him? i'm not born to listen to him, am i?
He said he doesn't like the way i am now because whatever he said, i'll shoot him back, not giving him respect. but does he ever think or even just consider what causes me to be like this? that bitch called me a CHEAP WOMAN, and "aiya, dont care lar.." is what you can say?? you own girlfriend is being called as a CHEAP WOMAN. can't you say something better? hell for you, i said. HELL FOR YOU. Jackass.
whatever you want, i try to get you as a present even though i will be short of money for school. wherever you go and you asked to be accompanied, i try my best to go with you. whenever you have a coffee chat, even though how much i really dont wish you to go cuz i really wanted to be with you more, i still said, "Okay." I tried to let you have and do whatever you want so that you can be happy even though the one that is suffering is me.
i know you're on MC now, but even if you're working, i dont want you to shower me with presents everytime, a present will jsut do the trick for some occasions, and i'm not asking for those expensive ones. i rather have a cheap and practical present than those. i dont want you to bring me to fanciful places to have dinner everytime. I'm never interested in your money in any way even though i'm schooling and you're working.
since talking to guys on the phone make you jealous, i tried not to call as much already. i've already did the best of what i can to make you happy, let you have whatever things you want in you life. i give you my opinions when you needed some.
what i need is abit more understanding. i need more care and concern than anyone. i really need more reassurance than anyone. i'm sick and tired of being backstabbed, 2-time, and all the nonsense.
do you think i like myself to be so bitchy? i dont. i really dont. i'm like this because something caused it and i'm offended. but what can i do otherwise? being nice after getting all these nonsense? i cant, really cant. and i cant keep what i'm thinking to myself any longer. i'll definitely go bonkers, DEFINITELY. thankful to have a public blog, but able to keep some entries as private too.
if you can't accept the fact that i'm like this, i cant change. Since we can't get along, i guess there's no point being together then.
