truthfully... it's not always a wise choice to treat people nice... some people really don't deserve all this kindness.. they dont even appreciate it... they even dare to take it for granted. hy should there be this kind of people living in this world... just a shit from the hell... anyway, i'm sick and tired of people treating me like this. anyway, i've already said what i want. if one day i should leave them out of my life, i guess it's a more wonderful idea than remembering them. just because they're so heartless to their dear friends who certainly don't deserve all this shit. anyway, if one day i should leave, i guess their lives will be better...
total shutdown of brain...
a subconcious girl was here ranking about the unfairness of her life.

"i got a good buddy last time
he loves a gal very very much
he is kind of like commando macho guy
never enter kitchen or cook anything by himself
one day .. his gal dumped him ..
that is a week before her bday
aiya .. found another better man lor
also partly the guy got fault lah
he not caring enough
he thinks he is a man .. the girl should do housework , should do cooking etc
then after breakup he very sad, lately realize he loves the gal just too much
he went to register for a cooking class
on her birthday ....
he baked a cake for her
when i heard about it i broke into serious laughs ;D
he is kind of man who never can even cook instant noodles
but for her ... he baked a cake
unfortunately the gal gave him no chance ....
he called her repeatedly trying to date her out on her bday
but failed
so ....
he only can left the self-baked cake at her doorstep, with a little note ...
that says 'dearest of my life , ... i have learnt i missed out a lot of things in my life ... i never know can bake a cake .. but for you, i did, finally'
year after year ... every year he did the same
just baked a cake and left it at her doorstep ...
he wondered ... how come that girl never contacted him
but he not gave up ...
until one day ... he found out from her mum ...
the girl actually passed away due to heart disease
but before she died .. she was actually waiting for the guy to chase her back
but that stupid man didnt
just baked cake on her bday !!!!"

*this story was told to me by Kenny
direct copy n paste from msn conversation*

morale of story: when you love someone, there is no shame to tell him/her direct. not just bake cake on her bday !!

urh hum... was supposed to work today.. but, but... i woke up late.. very late.. hahah~ gotta woke up at 5am lar.. but woke at 8.30 instead.. lOl~!! in da end, go temple with papa for qing ming lor... hahha~ paps searched high n low for their remaining bones.. stuff like that lar... but couldn't find lor... i found them later... hahah~

anyway lor... i haven't got my pay yet... christine said monday then will get lor... doTx... only mine ler... cuz she dont have my acc no. -.-

jies bdae coming soon le...19th n 24th... donno what to get for them... shir-jie.. HeLp!!

bro's bdae also soon lor... still got another 1 month 5 days... hMmz.. also have no idea what to get for him... maybe games??? donno leHx...

eHx.. suggestions??

woW~ what a day i had at work... we were erm... rushing pcb for shipment... i guess the usual gang [me, wei liang, yi long, you hao, zhao da] have to work till 9... yes, as usual... were supposed to knock off at 7pm everyday lar.. but everyday got OT till 9.. siAn 0.5 right?? anyway, today we kinda sneaked off.. hahah~ actually, we have to wait for the night shift staff to turn up b4 leaving... but scared that mommy [our sup, kok swee] asked us to stay till 9 again.. that's why we siam first.. lOl!!

anyway, today the fixtures at my station is a whole pile of shit... why?? at first, i've got around 6, then 4, then 3 then 2... shit right?? then kena jam like hell... bth... then slowly clear liao... for model A9... then last min.. somewhere around 5+ urgent shipment for A8... -.- actually early part of the day got deal with both A8 n A9... then everything changed to A8.. then really rush like there's no tmr... siGh!!

i didn't know what had happened... but it really looked like something HAS happened... but i did remembered somebody told me something about a friend of mine.. something sad, i guess... that's why i had tears rolling off my cheeks then... i had been weeping... in my dream.

well, that's something i dreamt of few days ago... erm.. i don't know... just a dream.. haha~ nth to write, that's why... actually there's something more, but can't remember already... oh, whatever... time to work!!

okay.. fine.. someone hung up on me yesterday night.. twice. forget it lar... 1st time called back, phone engaged lor.. 2nd time ar.. got through lar.. but then, became on hold... waited for a while.. don wan to continue then hang up the phone ler...

my bdae's coming.. well, still has quite a long way though.. hahha~ but i'm kinda wishing for a new phone for myself from myself.. yes.. i want to buy it for myself as bdae present.... heE!!

abt my medical examination.. i hope everything was fine lar... waiting for 13th apr... then will know the result... oh, man... dad doesn't allow me to go play pool on that day.. sam's allowed to go already... siAnz riGht?? -.- it's only going with 2 frens whom i know frm teckwah... kAoZ~ not fair lor.. other people can go but i cant.. darn it lar... now also hardly go out with frens already...
nvm lar.. cannot go cannot go lor.. forget it...

btw, i went to watch eye 10 last ermm.. sat... sstupidity larrr... last time everyday watch horror show not scared.. then 4 yrs never watch, now scared liao.. 1st show in this 4-5 yrs is white noise.. this is only my 2nd show.. scared lor.. shit right... lOl~ so pS in front of my fren... sHuCks~

anyway ler.. it a mixture of both funny and scary.. 10 ways to see ghosts.. if i could remember..
1. the famously oujia board
2. knocking on bowls @ the x-junction
3. playing hide n seek, releasing a black cat if cant find the last one
4. looking between your legs upside down
5. death: suicide
6. combing hair in front of mirror at 12am
7. wearing death's clothes that have been worn b4
8. rub your eyes with mud from newly grave
9. opening an umbrella in sheltered places

cant rmb the last one.. hahha~

i juz like my bg music... 秋日的私語... it's quite saddening lar, actually.. it's full of emotions... the soft of the piano frm the first part... then slowly, it has more beats n rhythms.. and more "strength" in the middle part of the music... something like.. agony, etc... then become sooth again...

to me, it just shows how our life is... the calm n sooth relaving moments... and the ups n downs, heartbreaking agony... it's just full of emotions... hahah~

i wonder if i'm the only one that can feel it..

figured out that i hadn't been blogging for quite a while... have a new job, that's why.. working 12 hours per day.. at tuas. fortunately, trasport was provided to and fro for the employees... haha~

kinda tired today.. so didn't go for work.. didn't attend uncle's wedding either.. well, he remarried, so there's only buffet at his house... but since the bride is frm malaysia, there'll be a dinner held there... heard from my dad that most of them are looking for me... haha~ almost everyone will start asking my dad why i wasn't there when he's there alone... but anyway, dad helped me out by sayin' i was at work.. :P they asked dad how's my result oh.. dad just told them i'm going to ite... but they said it's alright lar.. still can go poly.. oh, whatever... i just want to study nursing, no matter where.. haha~ that's my point...

daddy alvin, i miss u oh.. hahah~!!! crap, man... anyway, i'm waiting for my bdae present frm him.. :P we always have fun together.. lOl!! never miss out the neo-card machine, huh?? hahaah~

finally recieved the medical examination letter.. pHeW!!! have been waiting, ya know.. heE!! well, it's on 30th mar, next wed.. costs 4o bucks.. siGh~
then still need to go simei on 13th apr to get the result for the examination... then must pay sch fees either by cash or nets... this time really broke liao.. LOL!!!!!

one of my uncles gettin' married on 2nd apr... congrats wor.. er.. maybe i not goin' lar.. zhu papa go can liao.. :P i only want to go ah keong korkor de wedding....

ShHhH!!!

Cheer up, my friend
I hate seeing you so blue
It's not like it's the end
And you have to start anew

Don't dwell on the bad
Or even on the past
Don't look at what you had
Or how it didn't last

Just take in a deep breath
Gaze at the morning dew
Sit back and rest
It's a good day for you, too

Cheer up my friend
And put your mind at ease
Most things come to an end
But, hey, you still have me

lOl!! pappy was late for work again lor.. lOL!! yesterday still can make it in time.. but today late liao.. hahha! too bad lar... my room too nice to slp in lor.. comfy bed ma.. lOl!! but i think pappy forgot abt this ler.. last yr he slp in my room also like that.. :P ok.. so from now on, i'll be slping in my room.. or both slp on sofa lor...LOL!! living also nice to slp in.. muHAH!!