ohaiyo!!!
hEe~ so long didn't blog already.. kinda miss my website.. lOL~!!! mommie came over to my house yesterday... came to see me lor.. hahah~ i think actually she wanted to go out with me de ba.. but i slept like a log till 3pm, then woke up.. HAHA!!

anyway, i still think that bein' single is still a better choice for me. cuz i juz don give a damn abt those relationships juz for now. which obviously, is the best choice. =D muAhAHAH!!!

how i miss my baobei... lots!! i really miss my baobei.. siGh~ he's at lihan's house now lor.. cuz i now working night shift ler.. then cannot play with him cuz too tired after work when i returned in the morning, so have to give him back to lihan gege.. *Sob sOb* mary said he put on weight lor.. LOL!! of cuz ler... so good life in my house~ :P:P

oh, before i forget, congrats on my cousin for her marriage!! :D:D she's so pretty!! her husband is not bad-looking either.. good match worx~!! :P

these few days at work was quite terrible... kinda cold.. but luckily on friday i had yummy king's wind breaker.. haha~ it's was XL lar.. so when i wore it, it was like cant see my hands at all, it ended around my mid-thigh.. big, huh?? haha~ but still have to thank him for it. arigatou!! anyway, i was wearing it for the whole day since he doesn't need it, cuz he was juz wearing it for fun.... haha~ was doing labelling halfway lor, then was called to go to mini due to urgent lots.. agaiN.. siGh~ anyway, i was actually thinking to matchmake yummy king with one of our girls lar, but he doesn't want ler.. cuz...
those who know will know, those who doesn't have to know, will not have a clue abt it.. muAhah~
how cunning can i be!!! ;) :D:D

last but not least [i wont forget u de lar, my dearest sam], i really do hope your ankle has already recovered by now lor.. if not u better go see doc hor~ bro, next time if a fan spoilt, u still have to be careful lor.. siGh~ haven't seen u for yonks already [ i know this is exaggerating], and this is the kind of news i get.. -.-"" juz take care and be careful next time, pretty please??
by the way, i heard frm mom that u brought karl to jj class too, huh?? but erz, you yourself also never go liao lor... lOl~ after o's remember to continue worx!! study smart!!!! *prays hard!!*

guess i better stop here for today.. if not my dearest brother will be so unhappy of me nagging at him... oi.. got people care for u de hor... dont 生在福中不知福 okie... hahha~

going to slp ler.. hEe~ jA nE~!!!

yoyo!! i'm back again!!
went shop shop with paps n his frens juz now... i rush down to adelphii plaza in a cab okie... -.-"" then reached there.. that brandon still not ready yet.. siGh.. then wait lor.. pap, me, uncle james n uncle wong went to the cd shop at 4th storey.. then we were like crapping around while listening to the cd.. lOl!!! i bought 3 cds with the price of $50 for all three... discount given by the shop owner. muAHAH!!! dad bought an er hu cd.. very nice de.. then uncle james n uncle wong also bought their share too...
all of us, including uncle brandon n aunt joanne... took a ride on wong's van to redhill to makan~ the wanton noodle very nice worx... the satay also.. yUm yUm~ :P:P then we went over to queensway to buy jeans.. i bought 2 for myself.. dad don't want to buy lor.. sian 1/2.. but nvm.. he happy can liao...

i'm so tired.. walk plus abit of flu and all that.. kinda tiring also.. had my medicine also liao.. dad fed me de..
blEhx!!

i'm so super bored today.. not working.. partially cuz of my flu. cough and that irritating soar throat. i wanna go to work but was kinda.. ya know... hEe~
anyway, i juz did a check on all my linkies... nth better to do.. that's why.. drop by bro's blog.. he sprained his ankle while messing around with a fan during free period.. wTh~ how intelligent can he be. oh, well.. he's the same as ever.. being the lamer in his class. -.-" hope he does recover asap... if not cannot practice katas with him already lor.. HahaA!!
anyway, daniel, that supervisor of mine, really sux to the core!! he scolded jing2 in fornt of everyone, telling her to go home. what a supervisor... darn him, really. anyway, i've got better things to do than mentioning him afew more times in my blog...
i'm currently in packing illegally as i'm still supposed to be under flexing-cum-mini cuz of that stupid whatever headcount.. u called it... it's juz a crappy reason for not allowing me to leave flexing lar.. bodoh sia~ but u see, i don't really care.. cuz no matter what, i want n will be under simon during packing, nO MattEr whAt. guess i won't be myself sooner or later if i stay a min longer under that cow. *MoO~~~~*
jun rong wanna work in night shift.. but he said wait for 1 month first.. -.-" hope one month will be over quick.. so at least i've got another fren with me in night shift.. =D there's so many unitians in TVC.. lOl~ junrong lar... xinyi, maureen, xi hong also... eunice, huiling n joan, sabrina, siew ming, etc etc... but only me, eunice, huiling n joan working night shift lor...
*praying hard so that 1 mth will be over soon!!* LOL!!
may be visiting the doc tmr... see how first... :P but damn my nose, really.. so irritating... very IrRiTaTiNg... OmG!!!!!!!
i miss my bro sam very much lor.. haha~ so long never see him liao... really wish him a speedy recovery... can't imagine him being a paika.. :P:P that's so bad of me.. but it's alright, cuz he's used to it anyway.. :P
sam ar, mus study well for o's worx!!! good luck!! ^^

yoyo~ jus woke up.. so tired.. *yAwn* anyway, yesterday night till this morning, we were rushing like hell.. have been doin mini-assembly frm monday onwards... kNs~ tranceiver gor flexing not urgent de...siAn 1/2... then yesterday, bernice always ask me to do urgent thingy de... stupid QA lar.. so ma fan... check check until the last few ones hor, then check got one keypad cmi, then all rework lor.. -.-"" kNs de lor... den bernice asked me go help jing jing cuz i check very fast de.... then 5.30am we check finished liao... bernice keep asking me check faster.. -.-"" cuz line 1 mini need my help... -.-"" oMg~ this time round is 100% check... siAn 1/2 siA... not that bad also lar... but some really cmi... totally!! inside still got dust sia... got scratches somemore.. siGh~
yesterday vincent frm techpoint came over also... he put on weight liao.. got tummy already!!! :P:P then the day b4, ah long san also came over to send the v3... then today he also here lor.. then got another supervisor.. forgot his name liao.. last time when i got cut on 3 of my fingers then he went to security gaurd there to get plasters... then keep asking me if i'm ok, can still continue working.. blah blah blah.. HAHa~
i need to go ler... ja ne!!!

i got this frm yeeling's blog.. an update version.. cus forgot to change alot of stuff.. PSPS!!

mEmOrIsEs Of 2004

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
work as part-timer

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
erz..i forget my new years's resolution ler...but i'll make new one this year...

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
erm.. don think so ba...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
CHOy LOr!!! of course no lar!!!!

5. What countries did you visit?
Malaysia~

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
more $$$$... :P

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
17th apr- dinner with my jies
29th apr- my bdae with paps
21st aug- start of 2nd relationship
14th dec- end of 2nd relationship
26th dec- SPI xmas event

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being SINGLE once more.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not believing in my instincts for knowing what happened beforehand...
n misjudged someone....

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
lots of injuries... physically n emotionally...

11. What was the best thing you bought?
CDs n more CDs!!!!!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
MINE!!!! mUahaha~!!! :P

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
can't mention who lar... those buey zhi dong ones.. n foo xiangwei...

14. Where did most of your money go?
hp bills.... n lotsa barang barang.. :P

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
ehz..... meetin' him.. but that's all in the past.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
graduation by vit. C

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? sadder...
b) thinner or fatter? sama sama...
c) richer or poorer? ehz.. no diff lor...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
goin' for JJ class...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
cryin'... stupid thing to do.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
at home slacking...

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
yes.... obviously...

22. How many one-night stands?
gila sia.. of course never lar...

23. What was your favorite TV program?
don have... no time to watch also...

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i don't hate.. i dislike foo xiangwei.

25. What was the best book you read?
SPI X-files.. Hee!!

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
that i can still play piano.. LOL!!

27. What did you want and get?
a job lor.. HHAA!!

28. What did you want and not get?
a longer relationship.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
nth in particular ba...

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
celebrate with my father...went to swensens.. hEe~ sweet sixteen!!

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
jacQ's FashiOn

32. What kept you sane?
by being insane!!!!

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
nobdody.. they are juz plain human being...

34. Who did you miss?
my late grandparents.. also my former maid... *soB sOb*

35. Who was the best new person you met?
ANGELINA!!!! :P:P and kenny n wei yi!!!!

konnichiwa!!!

i've found another job le... at pandan, jurong east there...i uess should be teck wah's main office lor...well, at least it's nearer compared to motorola, techpoint.. anyway, i heard frm jenny that motorola techpoint has started shifiting all its things over to the main office already...
i'll be working night shift frm today onwards... 12 hours a day... the pay for the morning shift is 58 bucks.. kinda less.. so i'm going for night shift... all of us, except for caseline, are going for night shift.. caseline ar.. she said she can't really adapt the night time style lor.. i guess.. siGh~ so sad sia.... i tot all of us can be together.. but nvm lar, can go out again next time.. :)
juz now on the phone with jenny n sook yee... was thinking to let sook yee stay with me for 1 month until CNY.. cuz she stay hougang lor.. then working place at je.. quite far for her lor... then i called dad for permission, then he also allow liao.. hEe~ hope she will stay lor.. got company ma, at least.. :P
meeting uncle boon at je at 6pm, then we go walk walk... today i guess he wont be driving lar.. cuz first time go to our workplace.. see the area first lor... maybe xiao wen zi also meeting us at 6 ba... then sook yee meeting us 6+, same goes for jenny and her gang lor.... very exceited wor.. so long never see them ler.. :P

daddy ask me why don wan work morning shift de... i told him that i can't really wake up so early lar.. cuz work starts at 7.30 am to 7.30pm lor... then somemore no shift allowance, so the pay is around 58 bucks only lor... but then night shift one is 73 lor.. alot of difference hor?? daddy scared i cannot tahan lor... but should be alright lar... after work so tired ler.. confirm is come home n sleep de.. lOL!!! don worry lor, daddy... the people with me very nice de.. :)

i've changed my bg music to this.. well, due to the enormous file size, it is possible that the bg music is can't be heard. what we can do is... disk cleanup!! hEe~
cuz the music is nice lar.. at least i think so lor... so it's actually up to u if u want to hear.. ;)

hEyA~ i'm back!!!was kinda tired to update last few days.. hEe~ anyway, let's start frm 26 dec...

26th dec 2004
i went to dye my hair n trim it in the early afternoon.... spent abt 1-2 hours over there... hEe~ then, went to tamp. met up with wei yi n pei hua then took cab to toa payoh for SPI xmas conference. well, the conference was not a bad one.. well done, guyz~
when the event juz started, huili, wei yi, babyboss n me went to toa payoh central in babyboss's car to buy a few fingerfood for the elites... bought more than 10 bottles of herbal tea, and 2 boxes of fried toufu then went back to babayboss's car... then i remembered and said,"lemon tea n batt!!" lOL!! sunkist's batteries n et's [i think] ice lemon tea.. then wei yi ran to the 7-11 to buy.. HaHa~~
went we got back, the dinner is starting soon. they catered frm a muslim catering... the fried toufu is nice too.. hee~ then catered food is nice too... :P:P
after that, we had experiments, etc etc... actually i got most of the ans right... but i went to change them.. -.-"" should have stict to my instincts lar... it always happen.. my instincts always the better choice then my 2nd consideration... lOL~ but anyway, it's juz for fun lar... lOl!! the price for the dolls i wrote was $99..99 each then i changed to $25.99 to $35.99. and the exact price is S$0.20 but HK$ is $99.00. for the place where they were bought, i wrote macau, but the ans is supermaket.. LOL!! yea lar.. one of the supermarkets in macau lor...
the buttons exp. i went to change the ans too... i think i wrote yellow then changed to green.. but the ans was yellow.. -.-""
for the last qn. i wrote 25 and the ans is 23.. kinda close huh?? hEe~
then, we watched one of the tapes abt SPI in action... they went to the house and left the v.rcdr on its own with a few other gadgets. the room was in a pitch dark taken in infra-red mode. then strange things was the light from the top of the room and the frame of the door changed frm red to blue, n blue to red, respectively. then the room was lit but went back to darkness again. that was actually caused by our famous ah toh went he went to stop the v.rcdr. actually, the rcdr is able to rewind itself when finished taping, then i guess probably toh went to press one the wrong button which then came out total darkness like the 1st darkness.. but the strange thing is, fmor the 1st darkness that we saw, there was absolutely no flash of light. whereas during the 2nd time, there was a flash of light. we were sorta debating it, but the ans was still... well, couldn't reslove the mystery.. hMmZz....
anyway, the elites n few of us stayed back quite late to helped cleared up the mess... then suddenly pitch black.. caused by the staff switching off the lights.. -.-" wth.... but anyway, we were finishing soon so nvm... then at the lobby, kenny showed us an "artifact". it was actually a copy of the real one lar... but anyway, we examined it... looks like a pictogram in egypt to me... hMm~ then kenny took a pic of me n relic hunter holding the artifact.. hee~
sunkist, viper n me were in babyboss's car... he was giving us a lift home after that... a very big thank u to babyboss.. :D:D
i got home at 0030.. hAhA~ during the whole event, kenny was trying to sabo-touch me by taking my photos.. of course, i knew it.. so i kept turning my head here n there so he couldn't take. =P =P
i also got to know a few frens like devesh aka [dotz.] n alvin foo aka CoolFun.
nice people we got in SPI.

27th dec 2004
went out with mom n sam on that day.. i woke up late cuz i slept around 3am in the morning.. was supposed to meet them at 1130 but was late by 15 mins.. hee~ sorry mom!! anyway, we went to marina sq. for our lunch at pariss... it's quite similiar to genghis khan... although the scenery frm pariss is nicer with the sea, the but variety of food is lesser than genghis khan. we really had our tummy bloated over there.. lOl!! we went to shop around as we've still got lotsa of time...then we watched kungfu hustle... a very funny show with a few actions... recommended by me.. :P:P
met up with sam's dad for dinner... well, he n mommy were the only one eating... i had juice n fruits... sam's the one with nothing... -.-" drove me home after that... mom bought me a ht polo tee... wanna buy a pair of sunglasses but nth that i really prefer so i juz skip that....

28h dec 2004
was supposed to meet alvin ee at 1pm at jurong point.. he was late, as usual..lOL~ but anyway, he brought along a few frens frm the red cresent in m'sia, soon n swee ee, and alfred frm singapore.. nice people. :) we had lunch n watched phatom of the opera. very nice for a musical. we bought coke for our frens, alvin n i shared one cup cuz we don't think that we can finish that big cup... hahA~ after the show, i think soon, swee ee n alfred went to telok blangah, then me n alvin took the middle platform train back lo... i alighted at yew tee n he's going amk, seoul garden... he was very late already lor.. was supposed to meet his nursing frens at 6pm.. reached there i think around 7 already.. lOL!!

i got to know alvin during a hospital visit to renci hospital with my sch's RC unit around mid 2002... he was the chairperson of renci volunteer then, now, he is the senior advisor... wondering if he's still going back to renci... should find one day when both of us are free then we go back together to visit the patients.
anyway, i've known him for more than 2 yrs already... can really say that he's a very dedicated RC cadet n HQ personnel... so fast become SCO ler wo.... HahA~ congrats!! he was only on time once whenever we go out.. other than that, he was always late.. lOL~ no choice lor... he's very busy with red cross events. as his daughter ans a red cross cadet, i've already understood.. lOL!!!! there's actually no changes in him other than becoming more n more active in RC.. which is a good thing.. =) maybe i can also say that he's watched me "grow up" in these 2 yrs.. frm short-haired to long-haired n back to short n dyed hair... he's my confidant too... really someone that i can trust whole heartedly, be it secrets, etc.. some people will say don't trust others so fast.. but those who know him will know what i'm talking abt. he's one that u can rely on when u need help esp. in RC if he's not tight up with other events. that's who he is. really glad to know him lor... :)
really do have to treasure this good friend of mine.

MeRRy ChRiStMAS!!!!!

i juz finished my bath..lOL!!~ juz got home frm 2nd granduncle's house... saw aunt maylene n aunt katherine too.. HeE~~ so long never see them ler.. miss them wor... esp. aunt may!! :D:D anyway, today's celebration was a wonderful one.. lOL!! I WAS SO FULL... in fact, i AM still full..mUAHAH!! but i guess i had a little too much today... my head feels kinda heavy.. haha~ but nvm lar..... relative's house ma..lOl~ paps say de hor.. lOl~!!!

~My WishEs for XmAs~

*World Peace
*Paps: take care of your health no matter what worx!!!
*mommy: stop worrying too much for nothing... -.-""
*sam's daddy: hmmz... juz don spend too much on your cars n bikes can liao...lOl!! hope to call u daddy someday too~
*dearest bro, sam: u arx... better study well unless u wan me to nag at you!!!!
*kelvin-kor: all the best for your studies... hope your dream will come true!!!
*KY-kor: hope u will meet your true one soon!!!
*fen-jie n von-jie: all the best in your work~ muz strive hard!!!
*shir-jie: wish u can find a good good job.... ;)

*alvin ee: be a good missy okie??????
*alfian: wish that u can continue on your further studies!!!
*n to all others RC cadets: do red cross proud!!!!

*Sensei: pls get well soon.... and stop using the com when you've got soar eyes!!!!
*yeeling-jie: hope she got her black belt soon.. HeE~ and of cuz hope to go shop shop with her...
*lihan-kor: hmmz~ wish that you'll pass your o's next yr and hope all your gradings go well!!
*gabriel chee: hope that everything will be fine with your gf... and of cuz excellent o's results!!
*mark chee: muz study smart in Uni... okie??
*n to all others JJ n Judo-ka: all the best for your gradings!!!!

*weiyi da ge: wish all your taoism and all matters will be a higher level of understanding~
*angelina: donno wat to wish for... a baby for u??? hEe~
*kenny: slp more!!!!!!!!!!! n of cos allowing me to go your house to creat havoc!~ :P:P
*abductboy: slp more also!!!!!!!
*beckham: hope u will be accepted by most of the spi members... *prayin' hard*
*chua: hope to hear your wedding bells soon!!!!
*weili: treat those who deserve to be treated nice.
*devesh: don be so vulgar can??

*yiling n yongwei: wish u and your bf will be tian tian mi mi and of cuz your results will be flying colors~
*LaO dA: still got other forests out there!!!
*SiaoKia: hmmz... study well for your o's.. don disappoint me worx~!!!
*shifu: wish that u and your dream girl wil be together soon!!!
*zhaoyong n hannshen: ermz..continue your crappings n lameZ lar... but don overdo it hor!! lOl~
*jian yi: all the best for your job now n hope everything will be find for your studies~
*J.aloy n yi hui: pls smoke less.... n study hard!!!!
*T.aloy: hope u and ur gf will be fine for everything n of cuz, studies!!!!
*dempster n jiahui: studies!!! n don spend on unnecessary things......
*joey-mei: be more of a good girl n study well for psle....
*orange-di: u also smoke less lar.... n spend more time on your studies hor.....

*n to all my dearest frens: strive hard n work smart!!!

as for me, i juz want everything to go well for my dearest ones n of cuz having excellent result for my o's so that i can study the course that i really want in poly!!!

ChEeRiOs!!!

to: li han

1st of all, how i speak and answer someone is totally NONE of your BUSINESS. even if i've got a BIG attitude problem, it is absolutely NO concern of YOURS.

2nd of all, i DIDN'T ask YOU to do ANYTHING for ME.

if you AIN'T happy with me and the way i talk, juz LEAVE me ALONE. it's just that SIMPLE.

oh, and by the way, i'm still MYSELF.. just as CALM as usual. you just don't know me, that's all.

What is hurt?? Please tell me the true meaning of it... How does it come about?? Is it what u really feel.. Or is it just.. An illusion??

I've been through countless of incidents made by countless of people who left their footprints in my life, and not forgetting countless of hurts and heartbreak. My family, friends and my former boyfriends... They've all hurt me before. I could say that some of the hurt I've got, are just pure illusions.. But others, they can be true... As for how to differentiate them, it's up to you and you alone.

yes, no matter how much I've gone through, no matter how many times I've stand up again and again, there will always be someone out there so ready to hurt you and make you fall back down again. But from what I've seen and gone through, I really know some things...

1st thing is that u can't treat people too nice, ya know... They'll juz happily taking you for granted.. "Nobody can hurt you, unless you allow them to...." I guess it's kinda true... Hurt comes from trust.. That I can guarantee... That's because when you trust a person, you've opened up your heart to accept him/her... Giving him/her the opportunity to hurt you. So the best way not to get hurt, is trust noone.. Including yourself?? Maybe.

2nd thing is try not to devote all your time, money and effort into your relationships. Unless you can really handle it all by yourself [and yes, I really do mean by YOURSELF], then jug forget about it. Please be more realistic. You're in a "the winner takes it all" world. "Love is Everything." now, that is just pure bullshit... u can't really have a stable relationship when u don't even have a stable job. Without a stable job, just forget about the cash. We're just plain students.. Where the hell can you get so much cash?? Your own pocket money is not even enough for your oneself. And please don't give me the "money isn't evidencing" shit... Although money isn't that important, it's still the basic necessity to survive, esp. In Singapore where everything is jug plain daylight robbery...[we've got the govt. to thank abt this.] and obviously, i don't agree with guys paying for girls EVERY SINGLE TIME. It's the so-called being a gentleman, but what's the use of being one if you don't even have enough for yourself?? So girls should treat guys once in a while too. Till now, I've never ever expect guys to pay for me. cuz we're both students and we're still taking money from our dear parents. So what right do you have expecting him to pay for you?? you guys aren't related, ya know... Unless if he wants to no matter what, no choice then...
"there's no free lunch in this world..." ...Remember that.

enough of my rantings for today.. I guess I'll be numb from all those boy-girl relationships for now to prevent further hurting from anyone.

main priorities: studies and work.