写什么好呢。。。

小说看多了，就习惯性的想要用汉字。也不知道自己该写什么，只是觉得好久没进来了、有滴滴点忽略这里咯。

我发现我不再喜欢他了，真好！个人的看法是：不喜欢他是对的。哈哈哈哈！觉得他好像也不是特好嘛。反正没了他也不是我的损失。交个朋友嘛，多他一个不多、少他一个也不少。

还有件事，我快被某些人烦死了！已经到顶啦！我的天！怎么会有这样的人啊！怎么说不通啊！再这样下去，我得换号码了啦！真是受不了！

And why is my platronics headset not working?!?!?!?! Whyyyyyyyy whyyyyyy whyyyyyy?!?!??! 😱

Hello to Gerrald Goh!

Baby's here! My god-nephew is out to say hello to the world! Congratulations to my JX kor & SG jie, and of course their family members! I told kor that I will visit after they are discharged since they need lots of rest.

Anyway, I hope with the new employment, I can grant a wish every month or every 2-3 months on PassItOn's website, depending on how big or small the item is. I think I will create a page to record the granted wishes. ^_^

I’ve been summoned like a spirit

It’s been a while! Since I left WSP last Nov, I’ve been summoned back like a spirit. Hahahaha!
I seriously don’t feel that I left WSP at all. I was back for a couple of weeks when Jaya was hospitalised; I’m back since Jun to help on the new project. Of course, both were part time arrangement.
Looking back, cycle does exist so keep all doors open. We never know when we’ll work with the same person or company again in future.

I’m blessed to meet awesome people in my life. My friends from schools and workplaces make my life less boring, less torturing and more fun. Still, I do treasure my alone time with my phone’s app filled with Chinese novels of all genre. That’s how I de-stress, whereas my brother loves gaming to the core. He’ll probably die without games. Hahahaha!

The awesome news for the 2nd half of the year:
My bro and sis-in-law has got their marriage cert done at ROM, and their place is ready to be moved in next week! Wedding in Dec!

JX kor and SG jie’s baby is due to meet us in Aug!

Kel kor is getting married in Nov!

I’m so happy and counting down to the days!

曾经的我，也只是曾经

如果有一天，我对你淡了
请你记得我曾经不是没有对你好过
我的热情换来的只是你的厌烦
我的真心得到的也只是你的敷衍
我累了，不想再这样心酸了

如果有一天，我离你远了
请你记得我曾经不是没有努力过
我极力靠近你，试图温暖你
我把自己的苦咽下
我把眼角的泪收起
只是希望给你的是笑容和快乐
而你，根本就不在意

如果有一天，我变冷漠了
请记得我不是没有热情过
我没有强大的心理去承受你的逃避
我没有宽大的胸襟去包容你的拒绝
我不能死皮烂脸的缠着你
也不能毫无自尊的讨好你
我，只想要一个心里有我的人
珍惜我的付出，心疼我的眼泪

如果有一天，我变了
变得自私自利，变得判若两人
请你记住曾经我不是没有喜欢过你
我耗尽了精力，付出了真心
最后得到的只是一场独角戏
我自娱自乐，自导自演
而你，给的不是漠不关心就是毫无回应

如果我真的变了，远了，不见了
请你一定要记住我从前的样子
那么善良，那么天真
我不求你幡然醒悟，不求你回头转身
只希望你记得我，一个用心喜欢你的人
在你的生命里出现过，在你的世界里付出过
最后，擦肩而过，一笑而过

如果有一天我彻底的变了
请你不要自责
我只是给自己加了层面具
唯有装起了冷漠，才没有伤痕累累
只要藏起了真心，就不会再流眼泪

我的垃圾死友

超级无敌谢谢你哦！我的垃圾死友！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

谢谢你在超短时间内抽出时间陪我！虽然我们之间不会互相客气，会对彼此丢垃圾，不过我还是非常感谢还好有你！尤其是那天！

老麦！其实我挺喜欢这样叫你，叫得也蛮爽的。  虽然你只是比我大一岁罢了。哈哈哈哈哈！

我也好像把他给放下了。现在想想啊...其实也不是件难事。反正我特讨厌拖泥带水，所以处理方式干脆应该能算是件好事吧。不过，我还是别好了伤疤忘了疼！

或许吧。

或许是把话说开了，心里不用再被憋得难受。

或许是心情开始转晴了，看着天空也觉得天空是美丽的。

或许真的是我自作多情了。

或许是让我再痛一次，我才会记起当初选择不再喜欢人、不再爱着人的原因。

或许我还会想着他。

或许我需要时间放下。

或许当我放下后，我还能跟他说 “你好！”

或许在他的生日时，我还能对他说 “祝你生日快乐！”

或许吧。

Back to Fitness Day 2 & 3

I went to the gym on 13th & 14 Oct 2017, during lunch time. Less than 1 hour per time, so can only squeeze as much as I can.

Day 2: X-trainer warm up for 5 min, followed by gym ball, leg machines, chest press, and stretching in between. The gym ball is a little flat, left it alone after 2 rounds.

Day 3: X-trainer warm up for 5 min, then rowing (shout out to Ramil for teaching me how to use it! Thank you!), leg machines and chest press.

I think my muscle strength is improving, it seems that the lifting feels less heavy on 40lbs now.

Back to Fitness Day 1

Day 1: 71.5 kg

Today is the day! My first day with Angelina for training. It’s a fucking-god-crazy tiring session!!! Haven’t been moving my muscles much for too long, that’s why. 😛 But the most important point: I have learnt so much!!!
I got tortured for 5 mins with X-trainer as warm up then followed by leg machines, gym ball, kettleball, and lots of stretches in between. Comments: muscles are too tight, daily stretching is needed. Uneven flexibility, need to work on it.

Why am I doing this? My godmom is my goal for being healthy at her age!

PBRC 2016/2017

Friday marked my 3rd year in PBRC. I sang again this year, with a twist. Unlike last year which practice was not needed since I was doing a solo, the performing team for this year threw in lots of effort to get the opening act done. I was glad that all went well. Huge kudos to the team!

I worked with different team mates for the past 3 years during my time in PBRC. Nobody is perfect, of course. But if I have to compare, no doubt the years under Linh's and Marilyn's helm are much better than Kevin's. Kevin is a real good example to remind myself to not be a leader like him.

Nothing is better than staying away from toxic people. People who stab others at the back; people who grapevine on information that is not even confirmed (there are people who gets really worried cause of this, for heaven's sake). Such people. I am going to steer clear of them. I swear.

Anyway, I will need to get back to dancing since I can't survive without it. What is better than making use of lunch time for dance! Once I'm familiar with the routine for Ed Sheeran's Shape of You, I am going to smash Katy Perry's Dark Horse.

It's time for me to dance till I drop, once again!

我今年29岁。

我今年29岁，是一位女性。
我今年29岁，是一位女儿。
我今年29岁，是一位母亲。
我今年29岁，兼顾家庭事业。
我今年29岁，谈过恋爱。
我今年29岁，结过婚。
我今年29岁，离过婚。
我今年29岁，靠自己。
我今年29岁，快乐吗？
我今年29岁，很快乐。
我今年29岁，幸福吗？
我今年29岁，很幸福。
我今年29岁，拼了。

2 awesome AWESOME news!

1st news which is also my best birthday present ever: Marilyn and Sai are together! Finally!

I am so happy SO HAPPY since April, hahahahaha! Seeing Maz and Sai together are really really AWESOME! They really deserve each other!

2nd which could be my best birthday present but nevertheless: My dearest o' brother has a girlfriend!

No word, absolute no word, can describe how awesomely happy I am for these 2 couples, even till now! Hahahahaha!!

And down came the question by my dearest Jaya and the rest: when's my turn? >.<
Don't they have better things to ponder about instead of my love life...? I know they are concerned...
Even Panda korkor wanted to strangle me there and then when I gave his tons of reasons (excuses to him) not to have one. =P

Anyway, yes, I still do like him but I'm not sure if it'll work out... so I'm still keep quiet about it. Apparently, I'm killing the ladies somehow just cause I'm not telling him. Besides, we rarely work together, and he didn't ask/say anything so I guess nothing will change.

Maybe I'm just too comfortable now, or maybe I just don't want to feel awkward if he doesn't feel the same way as I do. Maybe, just maybe.